I'm alive

Again, I must apologize for my lack of regularity in posting.

 I think I have come to a point where I choose not to overshare the drama of my life. Seriously, it's become work, gym, sleep repeat. Throw in grocery shopping and church and there you have it.

 I wish I could be telling you about the apartment hunting, or even house hunting we do on weekends, the ideas I have for decorating said place, cooking vegetarian meals, and taking selfies of my rapid weight loss.

My life is boring. No other way to put it.

Here's a good Rilo Kiley video. I love this song, and it helps with my writing.  Enjoy.

Wrting Sample

Anyone willing to help me beta read, edit etc. Please contact me!!

Prologue

Memorial Day Weekend,

            The house had belonged to some Hollywood type from decades ago, and was abandoned for as long as many could remember. The disarray of the compound was obvious proof. Windows were broken, walls were decorated with graffiti and floors were torn. 

The house in recent years was used for underground parties.

I shouldn't be here She thought  Bad things happen at these parties.

it would have been a last hurray for her, being accepted to college and moving from the area soon.

A few people would walk by and ask her if the rumors were true. Janie Alexander was leaving the Dust bowl after all.

Friends would come up and offer their congratulations. People would ask to pose for pictures, others would try and give cups of alcohol mixed with god only knows.

She scanned the estate looking for one of the men in her life.  She caught a glimpse of the one she was trying to avoid.

As if saved by the bell, the lights and sirens of police cars coming up the streets, and the long driveway. The party was starting to disperse. Bottles and red cups were being dropped, people ran, and in the commotion, sparks ignited.

Looking out her rear view mirror, Janie saw the fire consume the estate.

That was the last time she was in her hometown.

Thirtysomething?!

Today is my 34th birthday! I hope 34 is the new 21, and I can kick this year in the ass, and leave last year in the dust.  It wasn't a bad year, but it wasn't a good one either.
Anyway, happy birthday to me!!!

2014 A year of Changes?

You must be thinking "oh god, another post about new years resolutions, prefaced by the comment that 'I don't believe in resolutions' line....well you're partially right.
I don't believe in resolutions, and I don't really make any or try to follow anything. I try to make things happen as they happen.  So, since this is the time that changes are to be made, so why not throw out there the changes I want to make, and figure out how to do them.  Maybe later in the year, I can look back and laugh again.

Before I go on too much, I should state that things could always be worse. I could be the cracked out whore passed out on the side of the sidewalk. I could also be dead, or living back with my parents driving around in my POS PTCruiser, and being overdrawn three days after I got paid. I am very fortunate for being in the situation that I'm in. Do not get that wrong, but like any imperfect human being, you want to tweak things enough to work to fit.

I want to become a stay at home wife. I think my inner 21 year old is having a conniption fit at seeing that. I always wanted to be a writer, and the last two NaNoWriMo competitions have proved that it is hard for me to write, work a full time job, and manage whatever family drama I might have to deal with. I have at least three stories that are written out, but need depth, and plot holes filled. I seriously think the only way I could do it would be if I didn't have to work, or maybe worked part time, so I could focus on my writing.  I was unemployed or severely underemployed most of 2012, and I did squat with my writing, so maybe not.

I do want a new job.  I love where I work, but It's a dead end job, and I have been told on more than one occasion that I'm disposable, and even though I am invaluable, I'm still on the temp side, and only being paid minimum wage. Hubby wants to try again, and move out of the desert. I would love that. I hate this part of California, and would love to be near the beach, near Disneyland, and near some other things we just don't have in the desert. I also know that it costs an arm and a leg out there, and I just don't see husband making those sacrifices.

I have been talking with him about losing weight and doing things to get better. He has started exercising, and I have decided after a temporary glitch and the flu to hit the gym with fervor. Let's see how long this lasts.

One more thing that hit me, the roadtrip from hell was 9 years ago this year. Holy cow. That week changed my life forever. I'm sure next year I'll find a way to honor it.

Anyway, the lure of finishing a chapter, or fixing one of many plot holes in my stories is calling me.

2013 in Review

Wow, this year has flown by. It seems like yesterday I was just coming home from having my heart attack.  So many things have changed. I have a different mindset heading into 2014, and I intend to make it my year to shine bright like a diamond. (sorry was listening to that song.)  I don't like to  make resolutions, because after a month, you forget them, break them and maybe until around this time do you decide to do anything about them.

I decided to look at bucket list and see if anything's changed, still haven't ran a marathon, or did Karaoke at the House of Blues, but I have done some cool stuff, like helped publish the phone book. I also haven't been much out of the desert, but I spent a lot of time cultivating good friendships like with my friend Jessica, my cousin Donna, and others, spending time with my husband, family, and also recovering from my broken heart. I made a more concerted effort to try and win NaNoWriMo, but still fell short. I did however go farther in my story than I have the last three years.

In 2014, I'm not sure what will happen. Will I be working?  Will I be in the desert? Will I ever get a story finished? Am I asking too many questions? Well, tune in and find out.

A NaNo Update

I am SO behind on my nano project.  Any attempt to write this week at work was squashed, due to work projects. I'm trying to make an effort to catch up.

It's not going well. I have been distracting myself watching the Hunger Games and Scott Pilgrim. Actually the movie breaks helped with getting the ideas flowing back.

Just taking this time to mention that yes, I'm alive and kicking and trying to get stuff done. :)

Apologies

Nothing really new to report on.  Just prepping for NaNoWriMo, working, and working out.  We had our second wedding anniversary...good times, but nothing earth shattering just yet

I hope to have some updates during November, maybe some idea on if and where we are moving to.

here's a lil earworm for you. Enjoy this Oldie but a Goodie. :)