I think the universe is trying to tell me something....

I've been doing massage for six years. I love it.  I feel like I help people when I can get those tense muscles to relax, and when I have people tell me that their massage was amazing etc. I give of myself in a lot of my treatments, and it can be taxing on me.

It seems lately like the physical toll is catching up with me. I'm always tired, grumpy, and have way more anxiety attacks, nightmares, and fights with my husband.

I might have stated before about my husband's dislike of my career choice, and for the most part, and as much as I hate to say it, he's right. I hate being an independent contractor, it's not that steady, and most of the people I work for are flighty, and rude.

So, I think it's time soon for me to change careers.  I have no idea what I want to do next. Well, actually, I have some ideas.  Teaching Massage, or working in Spa Management would be cool.  Maybe I should jump fields entirely, and get into something like event planning, or working more of an office job.

 I did some volunteer work back in the day with a non-profit with their event planning, and I loved it. I was on the committee for a black tie gala, and helped run the program, down to helping in the office with paperwork and filing etc. Of course, I did this eight or nine years ago. Everyone I worked with is somewhere else, and I have no clue how to get back into that field.  This was also in Orange County, by the way.

I went thru a range of emotions just writing this post. I was at first upset, since my back is messed up, then relieved because I haven't been able to talk about this without causing a problem, and now depressed because I have no effing clue what I am going to do now.

So, there you go...I think the universe is telling me it's time to move on to something better, like being a housewife. ;)

Why I hate sports..or my dislike of the Stanley Cup Finals

Growing up, I watched a lot of ESPN. During family gatherings I would sit in my grandparent's bedroom and watch TV. I watched everything, and enjoyed it thoroughly. I would pretend I was Chick Hearn, and do play by play of recess basketball games.

As a teenager, I wasn't allowed to watch MTV, so I watched sports.  When I was in high school, I had wanted  to become a sports writer.  I also developed my love for hockey.  I started following the Anaheim (mighty)Ducks, and soon became an obsessed fan.

I lost my passion in or around 2007, when the Ducks won the Cup.  I think that was more of less due to my ex, and also because I felt like I was growing out of that phase of my life.

This year, I didn't watch many games, but I did follow online, I interact with other fans on twitter, and I do sometimes have a desire to go and see a game in person.  Two teams that I have some ties to, and also loathe are in the Finals.

Los Angeles Kings

Ah, the older, and grumpier cousin team. In forty five years, they've made the finals twice.  (We did it in less than 20)  Their fans are loud, rude and for the most part, ignorant.  There are nice King fans, and there are idiot Duck fans, but they are in the minority.  I really have no problem with this team, and I am somewhat partial to them.

New Jersey Devils

Ah, my ex-boyfriend team. The team I used to follow back in the 90's, had my heart broken in '03, but still held on.  The ex got them in the divorce, and I moved some of my allegiance to the rival Rangers, and  down to Carolina.  Much like the Kings, I have no problem with the team themselves, just those fans that ruin things for everyone else.

Who to root for?

Nobody, but it looks like LA is going to win it all. Good for them, but remember you came in second to the team created from a child's movie.